My Enemy

There was this girl who I hated the most
she would never win; she would only come close
she was humiliated daily by everyone she knows

They called her names and threw her around
But she never fought back, never made a sound

she ate too much because she didn't feel in control
she seemed to be hated by everyone in the whole world

She was teased about her looks, weight, and what she wears
At first she didn't really seem to care
But then she started listening and fell into despair

She starved herself, cut her skin, and changed what she wore
But for no reason, they seemed to hate her more

No matter what she did, things only got worse
No matter what, they still whispered and cursed

Her dad beat her everyday
she tried to kill herself to take the pain away

Her mom was always disappointed in her
Always saying she had absolutely no future

Everything they were saying was getting to her head
Soon she started wishing she was dead

She tried to kill herself twice more,
they kept cursing her, calling her a whore

She lived through this with self loathing and hate
knowing all along her everlasting fate

Since then this girl has been long gone
But a small part of her lives on

She stops me from living, her anger still remains
Burdening me with all of her pain

I can't get a job; I can't  go on a date
With all the beauty in life, all I see is her hate

No matter how hard I fight she always leads me astray
They see her scars on my arm and immediately run away

I try to fight her; I want to get rid of her, she is my greatest enemy
But how can I leave her behind when this girl is actually me ?