Silent Screams

Life has become unbearable, I can't go on like this. 

i cannot take it anymore 

i try and try and try and wind up with nothing 

All my hopes and dreams are disappearing 

not because they aren't coming to life, they are 

I just don't want anything anymore 

I don't want to fight 

I don't want to study 

I don't want to breathe 

I just want to die 

I don't know how it started, i used to be so happy 

Nothing i do cheers me up anymore 

suicidal thoughts have been way worse, but I can no longer supress them 

I will fail, i just know it 

everyone is annoying now 

everything is a burden now

I am under 500 pounds and I cannot breathe 

Being diagnosed did not make a bit of difference

I am still living in hell

I cannot live like this 

If this is even considered living.....

Blue Happy Pills

Darkness Falls, Sign of a re-occuring hell

Emotions disappearing, nothing but an empty shell

No one to listen, no one to tell 

Personality fades, no emotions or feelings

Getting worse, when promised to be healing

Depression goes away, but drags happiness along
no longer able to tell right from wrong

Who Am I ? Not knowing anymore
Going Insane, everything I was behind a locked door

I know they key, the deadly happy blue pills
If stopped, disease attacks and I will surely be killed
Realizing my needs will never be fulfilled

No ! Can never go back to where I once had been
But it's already happening,
Memories erupting from deep within

Pills no longer helping, I can't go on
I cannot survive again, maybe It's time to move on....