Silent Screams

Life has become unbearable, I can't go on like this. 

i cannot take it anymore 

i try and try and try and wind up with nothing 

All my hopes and dreams are disappearing 

not because they aren't coming to life, they are 

I just don't want anything anymore 

I don't want to fight 

I don't want to study 

I don't want to breathe 

I just want to die 

I don't know how it started, i used to be so happy 

Nothing i do cheers me up anymore 

suicidal thoughts have been way worse, but I can no longer supress them 

I will fail, i just know it 

everyone is annoying now 

everything is a burden now

I am under 500 pounds and I cannot breathe 

Being diagnosed did not make a bit of difference

I am still living in hell

I cannot live like this 

If this is even considered living.....